for you and for me!!

Ek Ehsaas

2010-06-01T12:41:00.000-07:00

Aaj fir baitha hoon main us samunder ke samne,
jiske ek aur zindagi aur doosri aur maut dikhti hai..
us zindagi ke bhi har modh par ek maut si hai..
us maud ke aate hi ek taraf jahan nayi zindagi ki khushi milti hai,
wahin dard rehta hai us pal hui ek maut ka...

main baitha is rait par har pal sochta hoon..
ki yeh kinara kitna kuch de jata hai..
paane ke liye yahan zeher bhi mile..
kho jaati hai jisse zindagi..
wahin mil jaye humein us shankh mein se ek awaaz..
jo de jaaye tumhe zingagi ka ehsaas..

aajeeb manzil ke modh par aaj khada hoon main..
jahan pyar kabhi zindagi se ho to kabhi maut de jaye ek khushi..
kis kadar ki mohabbat ka nasha sa ho gaya hai..
ki aaj zameen bhi nigal jaye to naseeb hai hamara..

The blend...

2009-12-23T04:22:00.000-08:00

And once again it was time to board 747,
this time Seattle to L.A.
You pick your bag,fix it in cabin and take your seat,
when a man comes near to you for a favor to speak,
A request from a lady to swap her place,he said
The awaited "Yes" from me brought smiles on both the faces I met..

Squeezing myself into the seat between the two new men..
I put the seat belt and "Thank God" were the words into my ears then..
before I could wonder who were they,I heard "where are you from?"
and staring at both the faces I uttered "India"

Looking at the left was an American gentleman,
who asked again "where are you from?"
"okay,so u mean where in India. Do you know about places in India?"
and then I noticed a "Rudraksh" in his neck
he knew plenty of places including Mumbai where he had developers of his company..
he turned into a vegetarian 7 years ago, had no processed food also,
he knew Rudraksh were tears of Lord Shiva
and his favorite Gods were Maa Kaali, Lord Shiva and Lord Ganesh
but,not forgetting,he always loved his home town, Chicago [and so loved cheese ;)]
No wonder I saw Maa Kaali sticker on his Mac Notebook on the way..

and the I turned my right, where sat a tall, dark handsome guy
he felt odd one out after hearing our conversations about Rudraksh..
and then we introduced ourselves, "myself Vimal here"
born and brought up in Canada but parents from India..
The conversations began about India about which he hardly knew
and then showed his Id card, "I am an American SWAT corp.
People are afraid of me, but it was always my passion to be one.."
He spoke about being in the front line while being in Iraq
showed his hatred for Taliban, and why he joined this force..
why this resentment was flowing through his blood..
what makes him feel proud to be a part of American SWAT unit..

Thinking to rest then I closed me eyes..
for within a second I just realized..
God must have thought to make million kinds of people..
but he succeeded to make trillions of different kinds..
the mix and match sometime turns so different..
and that the blood in veins are from some other soil..
and your heart and soul follows a different one..
World is full of ironies..
Just came across this one..
and then I opened my eyes with smile on my face.. "they are just two different people" :)

Self poisoned...

2009-11-23T16:58:00.001-08:00

Poison the you.. and poison the me..
I destroy "The world" for you.. and present the darkness to be..
but at last I haunt my own illusion and talk to myself again...
to ask how do I even shake "her world", turn it from heaven to hell!!!!!

......

2009-08-27T20:22:00.000-07:00

Looking at the sky I dive into the galaxies,
but couldn't feel good as this land wasn't mine...
I miss the people, the place, the zeal,
so true so genuine and not just a place to survive...
closing all the windows I look at the door,
waiting for the one who can understand me little more..
the night protrudes out of the dying sun,
sprawling its wings of darkness, screaming out its turn!!

yes, yes, yes I know what you are thinking...
and if you get what I mean, you are the one, the only one...
Accompanied by madness, the darkness surrounds,
I can sense your absence,see the boundaries that bound..

Alwida!

2009-06-17T05:17:00.000-07:00

There you go my frenz..
Leaving the beautiful memories behind..
When I look up to the clouds and sky,
I see your reflection waving me “Goodbye”

When I turn to look around at the table we sat..
Tears roll down on my cheeks.. I remember the coffees we had…
Saying a bye to you makes me numb today..
Who do I talk to? With whom shud I play?

Freaking out for movies, roaming on the streets…
I still remember those Punjabi beats..
Laughing and mocking is all we wud do..
Correcting your pronunciations to get you through…

Watching gals crossing by..
Wishing them from the bottom of ur heart.. shud I give a try? ;)
Noticing their habits.. the colors they wear…
I’ll not tell anyone about the “desi gal”, I swear…

The trio in the rickshaw struggling to sit..
With those idiotic talks, enjoying every bit…
Sitting beside me every thick and thin..
All troubles and sorrows you guys would trim..

This pain is overwhelming today when I’m alone..
Loneliness haunts me every dusk and dawn..
Waiting for another half month..
After then even I’ll be gone…

But why?

2009-02-06T07:28:00.000-08:00

There are people burning, there are people dying
Shot with the gunshots without any crime
Murders and massacres we find it all time
Ravaging fiery flames turning all sides..
Jump into the trains or stay inside grand hotels
Your next step is what only your destiny can tell
Burning the taxies, random firings in the crowd
Blasts in the buildings, in the places around
People have fought and they still fight
Their spirits remain high, tears rolling in the plight
Panic and pain what all remains
Bodies of people with unknown names
Finding a shelter, looking for a place
Where you can find your second life, a bless again
Killing and harming all day all night
Debating over who’s wrong or right
Blinding each other ending the lives
No humanity in their heart alive
The smoky haze blinds us all
Leaving at the stage where life stall...

and then came a disaster...

2008-09-23T23:59:00.000-07:00

Tearing it down brick by brick,

You’ll get no chance to play another trick.

Snapping the chain link by link,

I shall not cringe, I shall not shrink.

I dont need to be held down,I don’t want to be caged,

I don’t like the darkness, I hate to be dazed .

burning the rope piece by piece,

just want to put my life in peace.

searing the flesh layer by layer,

forgetting the memories as if you were ever there…

For my dear friends...Miss u all....

2007-12-22T10:42:00.001-08:00

MISS YOU ALL!!

As time has changed and seasons have past
We've developed a bond that will forever last.z

As we have said good-bye in our our final year
And tried holding back those overpowering tears.

We remember those time that seem so long ago
As we grew up together through highs and lows.

We knew this day would eventually be here
But had no idea of its overwhelming fear.

The years have flown by but the memories remain
These faces and names will always stay the same.

So as we go out into this world unknown
Never forget the beautiful friendship we all have grown....

2007-09-19T23:50:00.000-07:00

Every day is a Rose Day!!!

Is this me?

2007-07-23T06:12:00.000-07:00

wanderer.. traveler...i'm everything i can be...
i'm like the wind that rustles past the silent leaves...
i cry.. i laugh..i think and i believe...
bad times are gone....good is everywhere and its happening to me..
like the wildest of imaginations i fly high and free..
when i go into the jungles of my dreams...
the forest whispers a name...
and that name is me...
i can make u laugh.. i can make u smile...
i can be your best friend.. and i can also be an enemy...
i'm the one who walks on my chosen path.. but i'm also a believer in my destiny...
i'm a believer of love and trust..
i'm also a follower of the essential and the must
fighting fire with fire, melting ice with ice,
with me around the corner, greetings will come in form of surprise..

Though I broke my promise and your trust.....

2007-06-04T22:59:00.000-07:00

Though I broke my promise and your trust,
My love for you remains as strong as ever.
Thus time will heal this wound and leave no scar.
Since I now know the pain of losing you,
I'll be yours more than I could before,
And you will see what my true feelings are.
Sometimes we have to lose what we most cherish
To understand how much we are in need.
We play with life until we nearly perish
To dare the darkness, though within we bleed.
I know my need of you more than before;
Thus for my trespass you may trust me more.
I don't expect you soon to love me,
Nor are my own feelings clear.
Passion is the ornate entrance
To a world we crave and fear.
We cannot know where this will take us,
Nor whether we will ride for long,
But pleasure is the overture
That flows into the larger song.
So come with me with open mind
And heart, and we the time will prove
With laughter and with joy unfettered,
And, perhaps, someday with love.

written for me.....

2007-06-04T22:22:00.000-07:00

Someone wrote it specially for me:

Kartavyon ki tu chada kaman,
dridh nishchay k teeron ko taan,
jaano shikhar k satya se,
nahi darna kabhi abhedya lakshya se..kyonki
khali hote us tarkash k brahmastra abhi baaki hai...

pankhuriyon ki sej nahi ,
varan kaanton ka aadha hai ,
dhoond kahi kalpna se pare ,
jeewan ka chupa wo saar hai ,
jahan mrigtrishna ki sachchaee..
ekarta ka sarokaar hai...kyonki
jeewan k is indradhanush ka har rang abi baki hai...

is chote se prani ki baatein ho gaurtalab
hai chah ye ki pehchano apne jiwan ka matlab,
har pal tum kamyabi k shikhar chado,
dheron sapno k pankh liye khule gagan me udo,
kathinaiyon k prati chttan bankar utho,
achchaiyon me sabse upar raho...kyoki...
is kathor aur matlabi sansaar me "MAANSI"...YE EK NAAM ABHI BAKI HAI.

Thanks Shweta....Miss you a lot.....

While I was afraid to fall in love...

2007-06-04T17:02:00.000-07:00

I was afraid to fall in love, Till I met you..
You came into my life..And you turned me alive..
For all the years I turned myself too hard..
When I touched against you… it broke apart..
Is it really love that I’m falling into..
Or is it the magic of you charm…
Sometimes I sit down and think..
How did u steal my heart..
While I was afraid to fall in love..

The passion in your eyes..
The love in your heart..
Might have been the reason..
I lost my self, and the love begun..
Now when I think of you..all of the times,
The desire to make you mine surrounds my mind..
Now I think how lucky Im,
That you blossomed my life..
With the tunes of your romance,
I wish I cud get a chance..
To let you know.. how much I feel…
And thank you my treasure trove…
For, you came into my life..
When I was afraid to fall in love